Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.
– Arnold Bennett
It’s five months into my post-op life, and I have made a few observations. Not only am I finding out that I do, indeed, have a collarbone and cheekbones, I’m remembering what it feels like to fit into a booth at a restaurant, fit into a chair with arms, and fit into the seat belts in the back of my car.
I’ve noticed a few other things:
- Sitting is not as comfortable with less natural padding on my backside. I actually have bones there – who knew?
- I don’t miss the beef we’re not eating. Never thought I’d say that.
- I am really enjoying honey in my tea – and I was never a big fan of honey before.
- My skin, which is looser now, isn’t as saggy as I expected it to be. I still have more weight to lose, so that may change.
- I’ve also noticed that my skin looks a little ‘doughy’ and not so firm. I think toning exercises would help. And sunshine. On the scale of One to Tan, I am firmly at “Elmer’s Glue.”
- Even though I now have the arms of a flying squirrel, I still cannot fly.
- I had hoped that the weight loss would improve the swelling in my legs. It hasn’t.
- My hair is thinner and I lose more every day. I’ve always had a thick mane, so this is a little troubling, and I’m keeping a close eye on it. I take Biotin supplements to help combat the hair loss.
- I’m a big fan of layering and scarves. Losing all that natural insulation turned me into an ice cube. I may be cold, but I am stylishly cold!
- I had forgotten what my ‘real’ body shape looked like. Now, I can see it again in the mirror, but it’s all closer to the floor.
- A brisk walk doesn’t leave me winded, and my daily stretching exercises at work are easier every time I do them. That alone gives me a smile every day.
- Along with my prescription medication, I’m taking vitamins and probiotics. I don’t have any problems with digestion, or reflux, or any of that.
- My hands look like my mother’s. And my sister has told me repeatedly that I look so much more like my mother now. I take that as a compliment and always have.
- People look at me more. Not my body – I don’t care about that – but my face. And by people, I mean just people in general. The people I walk past every day at work and at the store; people I don’t know. They make eye contact with me now, where before, they seemed to make it a point to avoid looking at me.
- People treat me differently. This is a tough one – every time I’ve lost considerable weight in the past, I’ve been disappointed and hurt by that hypocrisy. I’m trying to meet it head on this time.
- I never get tired of compliments. I appreciate it each and every time someone calls me “Skinny” or tells me I look great. It really does feel good, and I am truly grateful.
You know what else?
I fit into people’s hugs a lot better now, and I like that part the best.
photo credit Thomas Leth-Olsen