Voices in My Head.

 

Dad says, Don’t get overconfident.

Mom says, You’re too smart for your own good.

Grade school me says, Why are they so mean to me?

Middle school me says, I’ll never be one of them.  I hate myself.

High school me says, I wish I was beautiful and popular instead of dorky.

College me says, You’re a dropout.  You can’t finish anything you start.

Mom me says, I wish I had been a better mom.  I have so many regrets.

Conscience says, Follow the rules.

The child says, It’s too hard.  I don’t want to do it anymore.

Work me says, I hope I don’t screw up.

Fat Girl says, You’ll never be good enough.  You’ll always be fat.

Orphan says, I wonder if they’re proud of me.

Insomniac me says, I feel like a fake.  What if they find out what I really am?

Wife me says, I’m not who I used to be.

The mirror says, I look and sound like my mother.  I’m getting old.

 

Optimist me says,

“Keep your head up. You can do it. It gets easier. Don’t listen to them.”

 

 

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StuckonZero

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8 thoughts on “Voices in My Head.”

  1. Keep listening to optimist-self. One of my tea bags says: “Look forward with hope, not backward with regret.”
    Reacquaintance with my sister has opened doors again to a part of myself I shut away long ago. Through a multitude of audio books my sister Karin loaded on an iPod – and marathon phone calls over the last 6 months, I have rediscovered the very spiritual side of myself I tucked away because I was afraid of what others might think.
    Becky, you have so many wonderful qualities to contribute to all of us and your children. Bring it forward and smile 🙂

    1. Thank you, my friend. Sometimes that optimist has to shout to be heard, but at least she’s still there!
      It really warms my heart that you’ve reconnected with Karin. It’s good for you both. xoxoB

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